A year and some have passed. I hit some very downward slopes on this life trajectory. And some highs. And been trying to find my way to balance.
At one point in life I stopped writing. Literally stopped journaling and gave up creative sprints .. a few days or weeks here and there but i remember the day clearly in my late 20s. I had suffered the physical loss of my mother, I had suffered the loss of trust of some of those nearest and dearest, and lost myself in the process.
I woke up and said I can no longer write. It hurts too much. And from that point on I lost myself even further. Loss in finding other things that would keep m my busy avoiding all those pains I so much wanted to avoid only to wake up decades later to realize it was still there fully rooted deep and planted waiting to push through the dirt and come to light to spread its vines into every crevice of my life.
But I don’t have an answer on why today. I’ve created a list of folks that I’ve been listening to over the last weeks, year that I will slowly release in the upcoming weeks. Some I’m blown away I would never have considered listening to. Some are greatly well known. Others not so much.
I don’t know why today I decided to open up these pages again and start writing. But sometimes we don’t
need a reason, and just do.
So for today let’s start with thanking Me.
You can use this for yourself too.
Me is You really when we think about how interconnected we are. Whoever you are out there, listen to the words of Snoop Dogg.
“Last but not least, I wanna thank me!
I wanna thank me for believing in me.
I wanna thank me for doing all this hard work.
I wanna thank me for having no days off.
I wanna thank me for for never quitting.
I wanna thank me for always being a giver, and trying to give more than I receive.
I wanna thank me for trying to do more right to wrong.
I wanna thank me for just being me at all times. ”
Short Video below. Listen to the Full Video: You’ll notice also that he thanks himself, but he also recognizes the people that believed in him when he didnt himslef. This is important becasue we can be so hard on ourselves to not move forwarda or believe that a lot of the people we exalt did it alone. No one does. We all need some encouragement. That is why 1 in 400 Trillion came to be.
Full video of Snoop Dogg’s Words listen here. Go to 17:23 if you just want to listen to him but there are some pretty amazing introductions including Dr. Dre, Quincy Jones and Jimmy Kimmel.
CONNECTIONS
Today I listened to Elizabeth Gilbert interviewed on Hello Monday. More on this on the future - a podcast that i find just amazingly wonderful. Rich Roll interviewing Arthur L. Brooks.
Website: Rich Roll Podcast with Arther Brooks
Website: Hello Monday with Elizabeth Gilbert
Website: Dr. Joe - started here doing a pineal gland mediation. Watch more about that here.
I don’t know what pushed me to write today but in the last week, I’ve detoxified from not great for you foods, dropped a lot of my social media bad habits, and started yoga. I found time to do a meditation this early AM because I now fully understand why exercise or just moving is so important. To change the direction when my mind is taking me to dark places; switching my physical state is the quickest way to reset or switch my mental state. For many months, years and days it’s easier to stay in the state of staying the same way. It’s easier not to change. I’ve been working on it for a long time, it’s a daily challenge. Some days are successful others really not so much and lots of hours go to scrolling and Netflix. But let’s celebrate today. How’s it going for you?
PS As a reminder since it’s been a long time … I’ll be numbering these small serendipitous moments of awakening from# 1 to 400 Trillion. So today we start again, and that is ok at … at #1,111,111,012. Because the last one was #1,111,111,011.
PS2 Excuse any typos. i’m writing and sometimes editing:) In an effort of stopping my crazy habit of waiting till something is perfect, thus a terrible state of procrastination, instead, I’m just going to deliver this to the universe as is & worry about a grammatical error here or there later. That’s all for now:)